After Pulse: Anna Eskamani

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Anna Eskamani is an activist in Central Florida. At the time of the oral history she was a senior policy director at Planned Parenthood. She has since been elected the State Representative for District 47.

The day before the Pulse shooting, June 11, 2016, which was a Saturday, Anna had a meeting at a coffee shop across from the Plaza Live. There were trucks around the Plaza because there had been a shooting there the night before. Singer Christina Grimmie had been killed outside the venue. They were discussing advocacy for gun safety. The crime scene was a reminder of why they do the work they do.

Later that day she went to the Don Quixote awards that the Hispanic Chamber does each year. She met a friend she hadn’t seen in a while and felt good when she left. She and her sister live a mile and a half from Pulse. Her sister was sleeping, jet lagged from a long plane flight having returned from vacation. Anna went to bed herself and woke up to the sound of helicopters about 3AM. She checked her phone and saw notifications from CNN. The Pulse nightclub had a shooting. She began texting Latino friends to see if they were OK. She had to turn on the TV and they kept playing the same footage over and over. On Facebook she found that the husband of one of her friends was an emergency responder, so he was in the hospital helping get people there. At the time there was a rumor that there was a gunman inside the hospital. She supported her friend by phone.

She was going to work out that morning with a trainer and she kept putting it off. She needed to see the next press conference. She finally decided she wanted to keep some semblance of normalcy and went to the work out. They trained outside and the sound of helicopters were even more predominant. She cut the workout short. She couldn’t do it. She has 185 co-workers and they began texting. Mass e-mails went out to staff to make sure they were OK. Planned Parenthood wanted to issue a   statement. This was before anyone knew the final count. Anna began crafting a statement for the national office. She hadn’t cried yet. She finally cried on a phone call with a co-worker.  She had been to Pulse in the past and she had friends who go to Pulse. The emotions welled up. She got the statement off to National and local press.

About 4PM there was a press conference at the Center. She needed to be there to show solidarity. The Center became the hub for the response in the beginning. She wore a t shirt that said “My Health My Life No Matter What.” It was so hot inside. The AC was not working. People were crying. There was so much press. There were at least 30 cameras. She wasn’t planning to speak. However all the advocacy groups were asked to speak. She got nervous. She spoke about how Planned Parenthood stands in solidarity with the LGBTQ community. Planned Parenthood is no stranger to violence and the community can not be paralyzed by violence. She pointed out, the community needs to push back and just like the health centers our spaces need to remain safe. This is very real for all of us. In Florida no practical efforts are being made to insure that when you go to school or you walk your neighborhood, or go to a club or movie theater, that you will  actually be able to get back home.

After Pulse: Carlos Guillermo-Smith

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Carlos Guillermo-Smith represents East Orlando House District 49 in the Florida House of Representatives. He was elected in November of 2016. He is Florida’s first openly gay Latin X lawmaker.

When Pulse happened he was a declared candidate for the Florida House. On the evening of June 11, 2016 he was at a Union Conference at the Double tree Hotel near Universal Studios. After the conference he went home.

Carlos found out about the shooting on his phone. He got a series of push notifications. He woke up a 5:30Am and those messages were the first thing he saw. Two messages stood out in particular. One was a CNN push alert, and another was from WFTV Channel 9. The CNN notification announced reports of a mass shooting in an Orlando night Club. He sat bold upright in bed and tried to process.

He then went on Facebook, and he turned on the TV to see CNN which had limited reports. Helicopters hovered over the club. Other than what he saw, he didn’t have any facts. People began to mark themselves safe on Facebook. He got text messages asking if he was OK. He got a blanket e-mail from the CEO of Equality Florida making sure everyone was alive. Everyone needed to confirm. He decided the easiest way to check to see if his friends were OK, was to look at each Facebook profile at a time to see if they had marked themselves as safe. For others he fired off texts. Anyone could have been there that he knew. That morning, Terry DeCarlo was the first person he recognized on TV.

When they announced that 20 people were deceased, panic started to set in. When Mayor Buddy Dyer went on TV and announced that actually 50 people were deceased, Carlos sat speechless. He didn’t know what to feel. He bean to think, “What next?” This was his community, he needed to get in gear. The need to emotionally process was overwhelmed by the need to act. Next pp was an 8Am conference call with Equality Florida. They agreed  to deploy and find out what the needs were. There were 5 Orlando staff. One of things they agreed needed to be done right away was to create a Go Fund Me page to raise money for people impacted. Ida Eskamani figured out how to launch the Go Fund Me. That Go Fund Me page raised 9.5 million dollars.

What do people know about Orlando other than the theme parks? We needed to show that Orlando was not a broken community or a hateful community, we are an inclusive and caring community. He made his way to the Center. It was packed. There were too many cooks inn the kitchen. He felt he wasn’t needed there so he made his way to a press conference of Muslim and LGBTQ leaders. At this press conference he spoke with Pastor Joel Hunter who leads the largest evangelical church in Central Florida. They shook hands and an APP photographer snapped a photo. In “Christian America” a large publication the pastor said he was embarrassed that this hand shake as the first time he had met Carlos. He felt he wasn’t doing any outreach to the LGBTQ community. He said, “Evangelicals must repent on LGBTQ oppression.

Next was a 5PM press conference at the Center.  This was to be the LGBTQ communities press conference. Every LGBTQ leader as there. This was their official response to the tragedy. It was so hot in the Center. There were so many bodies. The press were not local. It was international media. This was also when he first saw some of his closest friends. When you see familiar faces after such horror, that is when you start to process what is happening. Christopher Hanson, a survivor of the shooting walked up to Carlos and hugged him. They are now friends.

That night there was a faith service and Carlos offered a few words. By this time things were n overdrive with phone calls and text messages. His campaign staff helped manage it. The rest of the day was a blur. Weeks and even months later he began processing the news coverage. The next day was the first vigil for the 49. The day was a bur of media phone calls up until the vigil  at Dr. Phillips. Carlos was on the program. He went feeling unprepared. He peered around the stage, he saw the crowd and was stunned. He had prepared his remarks to be bi-lingual. He was nervous about what he needed to say in Spanish. He wanted to get it right. It turned out he was one of the few who spoke Spanish in the program.

Last minute changes happened. He realized there wasn’t much Muslim representation among the speakers. A friend of his, Rasha Mubarak, was Muslim and had a long history of involvement with the LGBTQ community. He found her nearby, and asked her if she could speak at a moments notice. She thought and said, “OK.” No pressure. He decided it was better to ask for forgiveness than to ask for permission. After his remarks he would be with Nancy Rosado reading the names of the 49 victims. It was the first time the 49 names were read in a public space.  The Segway between his remarks and the reading of the names, he squeezed Rasha in. Her shared remarks form the Muslim and Islamic community and shared in the responsibility of reading the 49 names.

Saint Augustine Food Tour

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Pam set up a food tour on July 4, 2021 for her niece in Saint Augustine. The tour guide told me thee would be 6 stops on the tour, so I discuses my sketch page into 6 sections. I knew ther would be little time to sketch so these small thumbnails would have to suffice. We all met at Old City House across the street from The Leitner Museum and City Hall. This was my favorite stop. We were served large shrimp over a bed of mashed potatoes and asparagus. Neither Pam or her niece like shrimp so I got to eat theirs. I was full by the time we left for the second stop on the tour. Historical stories all seems to abound with insanity fueled by laudanum. Henry Flagler’s wife was certifiably instance and he had her institutionalized and then married her nurse.

‘The second stop was Ancient City Brunch Bar where we had pitchers of Sangria and some French toast slices. Here we got to hear out tour guides back story having been born in Chile and being do-ted by Jewish parents in America and moving south to Saint Augustine. The city is small with a crush of tourists. Between stops we stopped in front of a former Woolworths where black sit ins were held in 1964. I hadn’t realized the Saint Augustine was such a epicenter of civil rights activism. I thinks the stories told about the Civil rights era were my favorite on the tour.

We then stopped into Athena’s Greek Restaurant for some flaming saginaki, which is a delicious cheese. The red wine served was strong and bitter but went well paired with the cheese. I didn’t finish my wine, preferring to focus on the sketch. From here we went to a store which had tasting stations to try herb infused olive oils. The several I tried were delicious and Pam picked up several items here. Notably she bought an infused mayonnaise. I note this since I was handed the mayonnaise any time she rummaged through her bag. I leaned my umbrella up against a counter as I sketched knowing this would be a quick stop. We left in a rush and I didn’t have time to get my sketchbook back into my bag.

At the next stop, a cigar store and Cuban Cafe and Bakery, I realized I had forgotten my umbrella. Grey clouds quickly loomed overhead and it started to rain as we sat outside away from the cigar smoke. A trickle became a deluge as we ran through the stone covered streets to put next destination. The guide ran up onto a bed and breakfast porch to tell us a story which was once again about insanity and laudanum. Huge lakes formed on the streets.

The rain let up just a bit and we started our way to the last stop. Pam let me use the small folding umbrella which kept my sketchbook dry. However the sky opened up again and it poured as we ran past a cemetery. Everyone was soaked to the bone. The last stop was a cheese cake store right beside the cemetery. We had three slices to taste, and my favorite was the chocolate one. The walls of the parlor were a deep purple chocolate color. Each cheesecake was paired with a sip of wine.

Pam called the store where I left my umbrella but the damage was already done. The rain had come down so hard at a 45 degree angle so even the large umbrella might not have made a difference.

Capone’s

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Pam got tickets to Capone’s Dinner Theater and we went with her aunt and niece. Actors hinted that this was the first performance they had done without masks. We ended up at this amazing table right next to the stage which was perfect for sketching. Masks were required according to a sign, but few people wore them. I hope everyone was fully vaccinated. We wore our masks until we got to the table.

Capone’s used to have an open buffet but that changed when the pandemic hit. I ordered a pesto pasta dish and it was quite good. The performers were quite good especially the female lead who played a ditsy dame. The premise was that the entire audience was there for an evening of illegal gambling.

It was set up as a speakeasy and we had to wait for a knock at a secret doorway and give the password to get in. Mug shots were immediately taken upon entry. Later in the evening we were offered newspapers with the mugshots plastered across the front page.

This was the first indoor theater I have sketched in over a year. It felt good. The venue did a decent job of keeping tables separated. I ended up becoming part of the act when a male lead noticed me sketching during the intermission. In the second half of the show he asked to see the sketch and held it up for those audience to see. Then came a Bob Ross joke about how my hair had caught fire and burned off. This is actually not far from the truth. A week later the actor internet stalked me to inquire about the sketch. He asked another actor about the artist who sketches performances and I wasn’t hard to find. Not many artists are out there doing what I do.

The bottom line is this was a fun night of dinner theater. I would highly recommend it if you have guests looking for a fun night out.

Ghost Tour

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Pam and her niece booked a ghost tour in Saint Augustine for July 3, 2021. I was teaching virtually all day so we left for Saint Augustine after my last class let out. We stayed at an air B&B just minutes from Saint Augustine. Unfortunately that meant a 45 minute drive. I suppose anything under 60 minutes counts as minutes. We could have driven from Orlando just as well.

I used my iPad all day to teach and it was plugged in all day so I decided to use the iPad to sketch on the Saint Augustine trip. I decided to sketch the ghost tour guide as he waited for people to show up and pay. Within minutes of starting my sketch, the iPad died. I did not have a paper sketchbook on hand. The only answer was to do a sketch on my iPhone with my stubby finger.

It Ain’t Over Till the Fat Lady Sings

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COVID-19 is not over. Though numbers of cases are as low as last March 2020, they have begin to rise 10% over the last week. Part of the reason is that the vaccine roll out has slowed and there is a new variant from India now called the Beta variant which is 60% more transmissible.  The World Health Organization has asked that vaccinated individuals should continue to wear masks to help stop the spread of the virus. Fully vaccinated individuals are 75% to 90% less likely to get infected. However there are breakthrough cases which are less severe than getting infected with no vaccination.

The CDC in America however has not changed it’s no mask recommendation for vaccinated individuals in America. Should someone have a breakthrough case, they might be a symptomatic and have a mild case, however any unvaccinated people they might meet could get a far worse case of the virus and die.

It ain’t over till the fat lady sings. I am going back to wearing my mask indoors. The Beta variant is 60% more transmissible that previous strains of COVID. It has been known to infect people crowded into stadiums and outdoor concerts.

Donkey Barrier

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This is a sketch I did with one of my Elite Animation virtual students to demonstrate one point perspective. I am always encouraging my students to sketch the simplest of scenes.

This is a view from my desk and shows the entry to my studio space. My sketchbook bookshelf can be seen to the left and books are stacked on a table in the mid ground since each time a sketchbook goes on a shelf another book has to loose it’s spot on the shelf. Even my childhood bible has lost its spot on the bookshelf and been demoted to tabletop storage.

You might notice that the entry to the studio is blocked by plastic storage bins. I step over those bins every time I exit or enter the studio. Stepping over those bins has probably been my best exercise all year during the pandemic. The roll top desk against the far wall was acquired by Pam and was once owned by a renowned local syndicated cartoonist.

Pam’s pup, Sprout, got upset every time Pam went to work each morning. She thought it would be a good idea to get Sprout a play buddy, so we ended up adopting a pup named Donkey. The first day Donkey was in the house, she decided to enter my studio and immediately poop on the carper. That dog never again entered the studio since I blocked the entry with storage containers. Donkey is evil incarnate.

Sprout used to huddle under my Disney Desk while I was working when afternoon thunderstorms rolled in. He felt safe there. Unfortunately he has to deal with the fear of thunder on his own now that Donkey is in the house.  Donkey also chewed the hell out of a coffee table in the living room. All four legs are half chewed off. They look like they were splintered by lightning. She also chewed up an antique wooden Monopoly game board. I suspect that is irreplaceable.

Donkey chews Sprouts face and legs incessantly. He growled to assert his dominance but she had outgrown him and literally stands dominant over him. He still pouts any time Pam leaves for work. He probably gets exercise trying to survive Donkey’s attacks but I am not so sure he his happier than before she arrived.

Outside the window, a dark silhouette is visible of an outdoor bar with bar stools stacked on top of the counter. Those seats are covered in rat poop since a rat discovered he could chew his way into plastic storage bins outside filled with seed. He got fat and happy and pooped all around the bar. I managed to catch the rat so he is no longer causing havoc around the bar.

The Incredible Shrinking Brain

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A new study based on data gathered by UK Biobank, found that COVID-19 survivors suffer from grey matter loss in the brain.

The long-term experiment, which involved 782 volunteers, compared brain scans of individuals before the pandemic. For an analogy between pre-pandemic and post-pandemic brain scans, researchers then invited 394 COVID-19 survivors to return for follow-up scans, as well as 388 healthy volunteers.

Researchers saw significant effects of the virus on human cerebral matter, with a loss of gray matter in regions of the brain. This incredible shrinking brain syndrome is particularly evident in the incoherent ramblings of the former president (45) who held a rally last weekend in Ohio. It has been nice not having to think about this psychopath for the last six months since Joe Biden was sworn in and oversaw a epic vaccination effort which surpassed several of it’s goals but might fall just short of the 70% hoped for by July 4, 2021.

Even die hard MAGAts got bored with the ramblngs of the ex-president and decided to leave the rally early while he was still droning on about the past. He was infected by COVID-19 in October 0f 2020 and clearly his brain has shrunk.

COVID-19 Mach Pit

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The Delta Variant of COVID-19 first identified in India now makes up over 25% of the cases in America. The variant is over 60 % more transmissible than the original. When anyone in a household gets the virus it quickly spreads to the whole family.

Health officials in Mesa County, Colorado, have been scrambling to contain the highly transmissible Delta variant of the novel coronavirus. May 5, 2021 the county, only had five cases. Within a month, with the vaccination rate in the area low, the variant positivity rate soared 2,500 percent.

The county is home of Country Jam, the state’s largest three-day music festival which sold over 50,000 tickets. The event headlining Carrie Underwood was held June 25, 25, and 26, 2021.  This potential superspreader pitted vaccine holdouts against an extra-contagious variant of COVID-19.

As of June 24, 2021 the Delta variant was approaching 300 cases, making it the dominant strain in the county and resulting in an uptick in hospitalization and deaths. There is an abundance of residents who have refused to get the COVID-19 vaccine. The primary reason health expert are concerned about the Delta variant in the United States is because of the unvaccinated population.” Both hospitals in Mesa County are nearing capacity. Only about 40% of Mesa County residents are fully vaccinated.

With Mesa County’s current COVID-19 surge, the festival asked that masks be worn at all times and for three feet of social distancing to be maintained. I can guarantee that did not happen. Those who attend will then return to their homes around the country to infect their family and friends on July 4.

With the rise of the Delta variant, the World Health Organization (WHO) has asked that people who are fully vaccinated to continue wearing masks. “People cannot feel safe just because they had the two doses. They still need to protect themselves,” said Dr. Mariangela Simao, WHO assistant director-general, during a news briefing Friday.

After Pulse: David Thomas Moran

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Advisory: Please note that this post is about the Pulse nightclub massacre on June 12, 2016. It contains sensitive and difficult to read content. Post written with narrator’s consent.

David Thomas Moran co-founded Gays Against Guns in the aftermath of the Pulse nightclub shooting. He participated in a sit-in for the 49 lives lost and was arrested.

David first became an activist in college. The Pulse hate crime and Donald Trump’s election made the stakes higher than ever for him. He feels marginalized people are being scapegoated and targeted for everything.

The day before the shooting at Pulse, a friend had returned to Orlando. He picked his friend up from the airport and his friend wanted to go out that Friday before the shooting, but David was tired and so stayed home. His friend went out and saw Drew Leinonen and Juan Guerrero at Southern Nights, another club in Orlando. That was the same night Christina Grimmie was murdered at the Plaza Live.

Saturday morning, David walked to Plaza Live to pay his respects to her. That night he had to work at the restaurant again. After work, he asked his friend if he wanted to go out to Southern Nights or Pulse. However their car battery kept dying. They struggled in the parking lot to jump the battery and by the time they got a charge they decided they were done for the night. They went home.

David didn’t sleep well that night. He noticed some vibrating. He got a text message that said, “there has been a mass shooting at Pulse.” What? He went to CNN and the top story was the shooting. It did not make sense. At the time the news said that 20 people had been killed. Searching Facebook he found a post from Brandon Wolf that said, “Eric and I were there, we got out.” If they were there then other friends might have been there. Drew might have been there. Are they OK? he started to message friends. He had already texted his family to let them know he was OK. When he reached Brandon Wolf he was told, “We got out but Juan has been shot and we don’t know where Drew is.” A friend sent a link to a news clip and it was of Drew’s mother. She was at the hospital trying to figure out where he was. David froze.

Drew Leinonen and Juan Guerrero had planned to have a pool party on June 12, 2016 and they had invited David. He was considering going. The whole day he kept thinking, this is just supposed to be a pool party. The news announced that Juan was one of the first three who was confirmed dead. Juan and Drew’s pictures were being plastered all over the media.

David decided to walk to The Center and he got there around 9AM, then spent the whole day there. He posted updates and let people know where they could donate blood. He managed several Facebook pages that addressed peoples’ needs. At the Center, everyone stood and listened as President Obama came on the TV. He said it was an act of hate and terror. Moran felt some were calling it a terrorist attack to justify militarizing the police and anti-immigrant legislation, all of which he feels does not honor the lived experiences of the people who were victimized by this act of violence.

He left the Center and biked to Ember. He had originally met Drew at Ember. It was hard. Everyone was crying and grieving. There was a candle light vigil. We still didn’t know at that point who had been lost. Nothing was 100% confirmed. David went to Drew’s wake and funeral.

Much later, after the Dallas police shootings, Ida Eskamani contacted him and told him there was going to be a sit-in on gun safety reforms. They wanted to address intersectional concerns around racism, wage inequality, anti-immigrant sentiment, and Islamophobia.  Though he had worked with OPD through Bike Walk Central Florida, and had a good experience with that, he was hesitant to participate in this sit-in. He got to the sit-in just in time to walk in with protestors at 10AM. When he was arrested, he only had the red hat and a red heart in his pocket that you see in the sketch above. He had nothing else. That experience made him aware of the solidarity awareness movement coalition in Orlando. Various organizations sat in solidarity. After most people left, he stayed behind to sit-in with Ida. The sit-in made him realize that he had the power to save himself. The sit-in was largely about politician Marco Rubio‘s inaction. Rubio was confronted by David the next week. The Pulse shooting targeted people he did nothing to help. He used their oppression as an excuse to run for office again. He did nothing for gun safety laws, he did nothing for LGBTQ+ equality, and did nothing to alleviate the oppression of workers across the state.  Rubio was the epitome of the exploitation of the Pulse hate crime. People saw that confrontation. The Advocate dropped the story and it received a lot of coverage. That is when Gays Against Guns reached out to David about starting an Orlando Chapter.